Recently someone promised me that I could help on a BIG project. It was guaranteed to make everyone involved a lot of money and having me be part of it would not only be fun, it would help me get more work. Then, when it came time for the project to begin, they stopped returning phone calls and emails because they chose to not work with me after all.
I was really hoping to be part of this project. No, I didn't have a contract, but I was excited at the prospect and had a promise from a VERY reliable person (so I thought) that if this project did in fact get started I was the perfect person for the job. Then...nothing...
Needless to say...today is one of those days where I'm feeling like there isn't anyone out there I can trust. I have folks promise me the world and then leave me in the dust when it comes time to honor the promises they have made. I have always tried to do the things I say I will and strive to make everyone happy in my relationships. People know they can rely on me and that if I say something I will do it. I want to collaborate with people on projects and do big things but it gets really frustrating when people keep burning bridges and burning me. I know that in business you are not supposed to take things personally and you are supposed to check your emotions at the door, but the levels of betrayal I've experienced in the past year have made it very difficult to not get emotional. Am I alone? Am I just being too girly?
I'm at a point where I feel like I should just do everything in my power to not have to work with anyone on anything. I feel like I'm back in high school with a group project and know that zero hour will come and everyone will leave the task to me because they know I refuse to take an "F" even though it means I'll be up all night doing the project by myself. I feel like I'm the only person I can trust to get anything done. Everyone is filled with excuses and only cares about themselves, so should I just care about myself too? Should I let others down and quit offering assistance on projects? I don't want to be that person. I don't want to hurt people. I want people to like me, be able to rely on me and expect things to get done when I'm on board. I want people to trust me, but is that the problem?